Morning and asalamualaikum to u all yg read my blog.........1st nk bthu yg korg kne buka mata luas2 n phmkn ap yg aq nk kata ni cz ianya sgt pnjang.......this is bout my story..my past story..........
korg thu x,,,my 1st love start gn sape..?? n dimana..??? dat girl name sarah...aq knal dy at skola....biasa la...darah muda emg gatal an...gtal nk brcinta...mse ue aq form 4 ..aq kelas ke-2...dy bdk kelas ptma...dy budak pndai..pndai sgt..n pndai mnipu jgk..hehe....law time pendidikn jasmani kteorg camtum..bgitu jgk law pendidikn agama...nk pendekkn crita..aq gn dy da jtuh cnta mse hari guru...aq gentle beb mse ue...yela..mke aq an comel..hehe..aq n geng wat performance at dewan...n dy bg aq bunga...so sweet kn..?? start dri stu aq slalu cntact dy...blek skola sme2...n date at class yg kosong...yela..aq dgil...pgi2 ag aq g skola...coz nk date gn dy dlu....sgt degil an..?? dat tym i love her damn much...brg2 skola dy..aq yg blikn..tpup..mse ue ad hotmail..n ym...then bru ad facebook...aq slalu hotmail gn dy....my late dad ad bg aq pnjm kete waja..mse ue kete ue emg mahal m famous...aq ajar dy bwk kete..pling yg aq xlpe mse aq date gn dy at Pangung wayang...n at dlm kete...u know what...she kiss me...n u know what..smpai skg aq x pnh kiss gn sape2 pn..dy yg trakhir......happy aq x kekal lama...aq diserang sakit...dan always skip class....dy mcm bosan agknye....ad budak ckp dy curang gn aq...aq xcye dowh...tp ble aq dtg skola..aq nmpk dy gn laki len tgh date....do u know how i feel dat tym..?? u all cant imagine dat.....after i spend all my tym,,my money..my love to u..ni yg aq dpt..?? aq frust cm nk ap mse ue..dy say sorry n want me back cz skandal dy pn curng at dy..tp aq trus ilangkn dri aq..abis skola je aq tkr no n pdam sume email aq....aq ilangkn dri mcm ue je....hati aq sakit sgt....mentang2 aq kne pnyakit ckit..ko da curng gn aq....aq skit ap..?? doktor ckp aq sakit otak...tp law skt otak npe x mati2 agy..??actually aq sakit kne buatan org..ad setngah org blh jd pekak...tp aq jdi bisu..! aq nk ckp je tros btok..ckp je btok...doktor nk bedah aq..tp my mom x bg...aq brubat cara kg....n aq still idop smpai skg walaupn mnderita agk lama....dats y ble aq dgr ad yg kne sakit mcm aq..aq sgt prihatin at org ue...cz aq pnh rasa...otak aq sakit....tp ustaz ue ckp dy akn ubtkn aq slow2....law aq barah..aq da mati da thun lpas...tp alahamdulillah aq still idop....aq slalu semput...nk kuar pn x boleh...sbb ue tiap malam aq trjaga..smpai skg..n aq tkot..aq rasa cm ad setan at keliling bdan aq...aq tkot...hmm.....ko buang aq cm ue je an sarah...its okay...skg ni pn ko x dpt cri aq an....FACEBOOK prtama aq wat gn dy..fb yg reality aq..fb ptma aq nama dy AZRAH SARHAR....nama dpn aq Azhar dicamtumkn dgn nama blakang sarah jdi AZRAH n nama dpn sarah cmtumkn dgn nama blakang aq jadi SARHAR....ue la fb aq gn kwn2 aq sume....aq da x aktif agy...aq btol2 nk ilangkn dri dari ko.....aq thu ko still cri aq..maaf..hati aq da trtutp..maaf sarah..gdbye..aq slalu mapkn ko...
korg thu x,,,my 1st love start gn sape..?? n dimana..??? dat girl name sarah...aq knal dy at skola....biasa la...darah muda emg gatal an...gtal nk brcinta...mse ue aq form 4 ..aq kelas ke-2...dy bdk kelas ptma...dy budak pndai..pndai sgt..n pndai mnipu jgk..hehe....law time pendidikn jasmani kteorg camtum..bgitu jgk law pendidikn agama...nk pendekkn crita..aq gn dy da jtuh cnta mse hari guru...aq gentle beb mse ue...yela..mke aq an comel..hehe..aq n geng wat performance at dewan...n dy bg aq bunga...so sweet kn..?? start dri stu aq slalu cntact dy...blek skola sme2...n date at class yg kosong...yela..aq dgil...pgi2 ag aq g skola...coz nk date gn dy dlu....sgt degil an..?? dat tym i love her damn much...brg2 skola dy..aq yg blikn..tpup..mse ue ad hotmail..n ym...then bru ad facebook...aq slalu hotmail gn dy....my late dad ad bg aq pnjm kete waja..mse ue kete ue emg mahal m famous...aq ajar dy bwk kete..pling yg aq xlpe mse aq date gn dy at Pangung wayang...n at dlm kete...u know what...she kiss me...n u know what..smpai skg aq x pnh kiss gn sape2 pn..dy yg trakhir......happy aq x kekal lama...aq diserang sakit...dan always skip class....dy mcm bosan agknye....ad budak ckp dy curang gn aq...aq xcye dowh...tp ble aq dtg skola..aq nmpk dy gn laki len tgh date....do u know how i feel dat tym..?? u all cant imagine dat.....after i spend all my tym,,my money..my love to u..ni yg aq dpt..?? aq frust cm nk ap mse ue..dy say sorry n want me back cz skandal dy pn curng at dy..tp aq trus ilangkn dri aq..abis skola je aq tkr no n pdam sume email aq....aq ilangkn dri mcm ue je....hati aq sakit sgt....mentang2 aq kne pnyakit ckit..ko da curng gn aq....aq skit ap..?? doktor ckp aq sakit otak...tp law skt otak npe x mati2 agy..??actually aq sakit kne buatan org..ad setngah org blh jd pekak...tp aq jdi bisu..! aq nk ckp je tros btok..ckp je btok...doktor nk bedah aq..tp my mom x bg...aq brubat cara kg....n aq still idop smpai skg walaupn mnderita agk lama....dats y ble aq dgr ad yg kne sakit mcm aq..aq sgt prihatin at org ue...cz aq pnh rasa...otak aq sakit....tp ustaz ue ckp dy akn ubtkn aq slow2....law aq barah..aq da mati da thun lpas...tp alahamdulillah aq still idop....aq slalu semput...nk kuar pn x boleh...sbb ue tiap malam aq trjaga..smpai skg..n aq tkot..aq rasa cm ad setan at keliling bdan aq...aq tkot...hmm.....ko buang aq cm ue je an sarah...its okay...skg ni pn ko x dpt cri aq an....FACEBOOK prtama aq wat gn dy..fb yg reality aq..fb ptma aq nama dy AZRAH SARHAR....nama dpn aq Azhar dicamtumkn dgn nama blakang sarah jdi AZRAH n nama dpn sarah cmtumkn dgn nama blakang aq jadi SARHAR....ue la fb aq gn kwn2 aq sume....aq da x aktif agy...aq btol2 nk ilangkn dri dari ko.....aq thu ko still cri aq..maaf..hati aq da trtutp..maaf sarah..gdbye..aq slalu mapkn ko...
Cinta ke-2 aq dgn perempuan cina nama Hui a.k.a wind.....kteorg knal at msg..dy salah sent msg.....dy byk ajar aq bi..kteorg msg gne bi je....hehhe...dy ske nyanyi...dy adiahkn aq lagu dri kumpulan SHE...dy nyanyikn lgu ue utk aq....dy slalu pnggil aq "my litlle boy-boy"...dy keje at Lazo Diamond dlu...at summit parade btu pahat........dy ske lagu aizat..lgu ap ekh tjuk dy...hmm...lagu Hany kau yg mampu...dy crita at aq..dy ad bf dlu..tp bf dy da ptskn dy sbb salah dy dlu n dy nyesal...dy ad adik kcik yg dgil..byk la dy crita tntg fmily dy.....n tiap kali aq tpupkn dy...dy ckp aq baik sgt..pnh 1 ary aq at ospital..fmily aq x thu...dy cntact sume no yg pnh aq gne utk msg dy...no akak aq..no late papa aq pn dy cntct mse ue...hahahaha...caring sgt..i syg u wind,...dy ckp aq dgil x dgr ckp fmily..hehe...yg buat bulu tengkuk meremang ialah ble dy ckp " i miss u my litlle boy2..i syg u.."..mse ue aq x cntct dy 2 hari cz sakit...hahaha...hapy with her...aq tnggu dy blek keje..pkul 11 pm..dy akn ckp " im reached home juz now"..tiap hari aq tgu dy..msg smpai kteorg tdow...dy slalu pnggil aq "sampat"..n i love dat name..haha..sampat ue gler..huhu..dy ad msuk prtandigan nyanyian at bp mall...dy soh aq pegi..tp aq x g..aq sakit..maaf....tp dy mjok kejap je cz im her little boy2...tp happy aq kejap je..pas dy dpt msuk University terengganu..dy brubah drastik...dy jmpe someone cina..dy kata dy x boleh gn aq cz aq malay..law aq cina mayb dy akn dgn aq..dy say sorry at aq...."dun disturb n find me anymore..".........ue ayat dy yg wat aq jatuh n trsungkur.......yeah..thnks 4 dat....aq trima k wind....now,aq da xcntct dy agy......aq tkr no....bye Wind....
my last love name fatin nabila...yg sblm ue nana..ue aq xnk cter,..aq bnci dy...
aq serik dgn cnta reality...then aq wat fb ke -2 nama Har azhar.....nk try yg fantasi..n aq knal gn someone nama Fatin nabila....mse ue aq tgk fb dy x rmai laki yg singgah..so aq arap dy blh mnjadi semngat utk aq idop..dy xkn gn laki len slain aq...cz mse ue fb dy x sefamous skg ni...emg susah nk dptkn no dy..susah sgt...then aq x pts asa..last2 pda 6jun2010...aq dpt ni hp dy....then aq dpt hati dy jgk...n i tink im the lucky person in this world cz get her....mcm2 bnda yg aq tempuhi gn dy,,,fitnah..cmbru..sakit hati..smua ad...terkilan..kecewa dan gmbra aq pnh lalui dgn dy n dgn kwn2 fb ke-2 aq ni....aq syg dorg..n aq sgt sygkn fatin...day after day...kteorg semakin renggang...mayb coz jarang jmpa dy....mcm mana nk jmpe..?? law dlm sms pn aq disakiti..n aq sakit...sukar utk aq keluar rumah......dy pn makin bosan dgn aq....aq syg dy sgt....aq ajar dy erti cinta...aq bri ap yg dy inginkn...aq ikhlas krna aq cintakn dy..aq arap dy x sama dgn ex aq yg len.....emg dy x sama...tp salah aq sbb trlalu cntakan dy tlah mmbwat dy makin jauh dri aq....dy skit hati aq cmbrukn dy dgn kwn fb yg len seperti aeyriz...alia...dan yg trbaru nurnabila....aq syg bell...tp aq cnta fatin........
btol kata sarah...dy sumpah aq xkn dpt pmpuan len yg cintakn aq dgn sepenuh hti..emg xde girl yg ske at laki sakit an.....bell trima aq..tp aq x cnta kn dy seperti mana aq cintakn sarah..wind n fatin........i hate my heart......hmm....aq thu ftin syg aq....tp dy perlukn seseorg yg jaga dy..yg boleh jmpe dy hari2..n boleh date gn dy brsama kwn2 dy....ftin sgt pentingkn kwn2 dy dri buah hti dy sndri....aq x mnx utk jdi mcm ni....dy x trima aq....cz dy ragu2 dgn siapa aq sbnrnya.......btol kn..?? inilh aq yg sbenar ftin..seseorg yg menagih kasih dan cinta utk dbrikn semngat dan utk menjalani idop ini......maybe bler aq da sihat aq sndri akn jmpe ko..tp bler aq da mti aq tetap akn jmpe ko,tp roh aq yg jmpe ko...
smlm dy x bri jwapan pn at aq....means dy nk aq jauh n lpekn dy....fatin seorg yg baik..n x sosial...aq slalu puji dy dpn fmily n kwn2 aq...tp aq bkn trbaik bwat dy..1 day,dy akn cpl..akn brkahwin n akn ad anak2..tp bkn dgn aq..dgn org len..dan aq hnya kenangan bg dy.....aq syg ko ftin.....skali agy aq x aktif fb Har azhar..n fb mohd azhar kamarudin....n no aq pn aq da tkr....Cinta dlm fantasi pn aq gagal..sumpahan sarah emg menjadi..skali agy..aq akn ilangkn dri aq...bye kwn2 fb aq yg aq syg sume ue...n gdbye Fatin nabila............
#mungkin ku temui cnta sejati..saat aq hembuskn nafas trakhirku..mungkn cnta sejati memang x ada..dlm crita kehidupan ini...........no HAPPY ENDING IN MY LOVE STORY...THNKS TO U ALL YG AKU KASIHI KRNA PERNAH HADIR DLM HIDUPKU INI...BYE SEMUA...=')
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